Tuesday, December 30, 2008

First Post.

Daggers appear in almost every persons smile at one point in time. I know for myself I've sent those daggers out on unsuspecting people numerous amounts of time. I can also think of times when people sent the daggers my way. One time I think of more then any happened not too long ago when I was a sophomore I lashed out on one of my very good friends-lets call her friend A- who in no way actually deserved it. It was during Concert Band the only class we actually shared together. I had heard a rumor that friend A had said some things about one of our mutual friends (friend B). Friend A had also started drifting away from me, talking to me less and less. Naturally, I hadn't the slightest clue why, but as the day progressed friend B told me it was because friend A had decided that friend B had me and anther one of our friends on “leashes” and was making our decisions for us. Of course hearing this news I was royally pissed off at friend A because I was foolish enough to believe friend B. So, I ended up confronting friend A, and after all the stress and other stuff she'd been through with friend B my anger towards her pushed her over the edge, and I made her cry. Friend B, however; looked at our crying friend A, and I swear for a moment she smiled, and the daggers showed through. Afterwards however, she yelled at me, told me I was a horrible person, and went to apologies to friend A. The two became hesitant friends again while I stood on the outside feeling horrible and sad about what I had said. However, my angst was short-lived. No more then two weeks later, friend B went and started the whole petty argument over again. That smile showing through once again. I again acted naive and fell for friend B's game again - this time however just ignoring friend A instead of confronting her. Quite recently I began talking to friend A again. It’s turned out for the better, because friend B's smile came back. This time however instead of being directed at friend A, it fell on me. That's where my and friend B's friendship ended.